Stars shining bright above you;
Night breezes seem to whisper 'I love you'.
Birds singing in the sycamore tree.
Dream a little dream of me.
Say nighty-night and kiss me;
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone, blue as can be,
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on, dear -
Still craving your kiss.
I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear,
Just saying this...
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you -
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be,
Dream a little dream of me.
I have always been fascinated by the 30's and 40's- the music, the fashion, the stories of strength, family, and sacrifice. I often think to myself, "If I wasn't born in this time period, I would like to have lived and been a young adult in the 40´s." It just so happens that this time period was the time of my great grandparents. As a kid I always loved going to their houses and talking about what their lives where like. I loved to look at photos of cute grandmas with victory curls and happy dresses, grandpas in their military uniforms, etc.
The song above is my favorite song in the whole wide world. It has a lot of meaning for me. It reminds me of ties I have with a friend, my mission and how I'm so far away, how I'm still waiting for my man, my great grandparents and World War II, and always it has really made me think of my Great Grandma and Grandpa Gwynn. They where/are so in love and I always loved this about them. When my Grandma Dot passed away a few years ago, this song came to my head. My poor grandpa was all alone without his "sweetheart" I remember thinking, "When I grow up, I want to marry someone who will love me like he loves her." Their love makes me think of another song by Lana Del Rey, "Will You Still Love Me".
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Dear lord, when I get to heaven
Please let me bring my man
When he comes tell me that you'll let him in
Father tell me if you can
Oh that grace,
He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds"
Yesterday, my mission president called; he talked for a bit with my comp asking how we were and how's our area, then he asked to talk with me. I was like, "Why in the world does the president want to talk to me?" Then he told me that my Grandpa Gwynn had died. I began to cry. I love all my great grandparents, but I have always been closest to the Gwynn's. It was\is such a strange feeling, I knew when I saw him during Christmas that it would be my last time seeing him in this life, but it still hurts. At the same time I was SUPER happy because now, my sweet great grandparents are together again, and together is where they belong. The thought also came to me that now I have both the Gwynn's to look after me while I´m here in the mission. I don't like when big things happen while I'm out here because it makes me so helpless and estranged, but it will all work out in the end and it's for the best.
This week I actually spent some time helping people with family history. This work is yet another form of missionary work, it's just as big and important as the work I do out in the field. It's frustrating and difficult, but it's such blessing, and I love how I can feel close to my family, and the strength it gives me in knowing of their legacies. I want to live up to my heritage. Please family get going and help our family.
I have never told anyone this before, but sometimes I like to imagine when I go to heaven that I'll arive in armor, bright shiny silver armor, I want to shout victory and be surrounded by my family, all the people I have ever helped through all the types of missionary work I've done. I want to hug my loved ones and sing praises to mi Señor. It´s a weird nerdy dream I know, but it makes me happy. I don't want to lose anyone.
We had a baptism on Saturday, it was good, and I think it will really help in the life of this man and his family. I hope that one day all his family can come to a knowledge of the Gospel. Tomorrow we will have yet another baptism for two boys who I really think of as my brothers. Their mom and two sisters were baptized a few weeks ago and already their family has really changed for the better. They are more united, they say they fight less, they look softer, and are super active they go to all the activities. I won´t be suprised if the mom gets a calling soon. This family is amazing!
On Sunday, the mom came to me and my companion and told us that she and her daughters had been talking when they realized that one day my comp and I would be transferred, and that one day we will go home to our different countries. She started crying and said, you two are very special to our family and we don't want to lose you. Please give us contact info so we can stay in touch. This family is so good! I can see the boys going on missions, and the girls getting married in the temple.
I guess this week really is me focusing on FAMILY, family of all types, blood, super close friends, wards, etc. We are all family, and through the Gospel of Jesus Christ and sacred temple work we can all be together for eternity. This is what I love most about the church, the hope and knowledge it gives me, that as President Uchtdorf said, "There are no true endings, only eternal beginnings"- or something to that effect.
Random fact of the day- I love the bagpipes, and every time I hear them I want to stand up and do something big and cry. It's similar with all Celtic music really...hmmm...I wonder why?
Tomorrow will mark the 6 months here on my mission (5 months in Mexico). WAHOO! I only have a year left.
Love yall! Hermana Shingleton