Mi Ancla Tu Seras

"Anchor"

When all the world is spinning ‘round 

Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 

And my feet will not stay on the ground

You anchor me back down 

I am nearly world renowned 

As a restless soul who always skips town 

But I look for you to come around

And anchor me back down 

There are those who think that I’m strange

They would box me up and tell me to change

But you hold me close and softly say

That you wouldn’t have me any other way 

When people pin me as a clown

You behave as though I’m wearing a crown

When I’m lost I feel so very found

When you anchor me back down 

Well, I got sick yet again. I was out of action for a day and then it tapered down to just a yucky cold. Can I just tell y'all that I am sick of being sick. I really don't understand why I get so sick all the time.

My comp and I are on a sort of diet, breakfast is only fruit, fruit, and oatmeal or shakes of fruit and oatmeal. We have to eat whatever the members give us but we are trying to be healthy, super hard when living in Mexico. The nice thing is that fruit is más o menos (more or less) cheap. 

This week was rough. All of our appointments kept falling through so we walked around contacting people like crazy. Our current record in one day is 43 people. By the end of the week we had contacted about 123 people and the mission requirement is only 15 a day. I have been dead tired, I just die at night, and my feet kill. Then, when I sleep I get nightmares- so much fun.

My companion is good, it's just been rough getting used to each other and our different styles of working, teaching, and just living.  The branch I am in seems pretty neat; the people are really friendly. 

Saturday we had a branch talent show...that was an interesting experience. It was so boring. I ended up having to sing and play my guitar as the first number. It was kinda fun because everyone thought  I was going to sing in English, and then when I started singing in Spanish they where all like, "Say what?! I think the people here are surprised at how well I can speak in Spanish.  I know I'm not that good, but I'm getting there. 

Last week my comp and I went to the mall. I couldn't buy anything because I didn't have any money, but it was nice to see "civilization" again lol. We got to eat American style pizza and donuts, that was super needed. 

My comp and I riding in a moto-taxi

There have been many times in my mission that I have wondered if I am even making a difference or helping anyone. Well, the other day I was feeling sad, sick, and alone, and I remembered that Hermana Abril had given me a letter before I left and told me to read it whenever I get sad or disheartened. So I pulled it out and started reading. Can I just say that I sobbed like a baby, it was exactly what I needed to hear. I had no idea the whole time I was in my last area that I was making an impression on people/her like I guess I did. It's funny too because I was scared of her when I first got to the area and now I can say she is one of my best friends. 

This week I have been really thinking about prayer, and getting prayers answered. Sometimes it's hard for me to recognize answers, but I can testify that prayers are answered, and God definitely listens. Sometimes He doesn't answer the way we want or in the timing we want, but the thing is He knows best- He is GOD, He knows us and those around us better then we know ourselves, so when He answers, it's always in our best interest. Sometimes His answers hurt, sometimes we feel like He isn't there for us, but we need to just remember it will all work out in the end and someday we will look back and see clearly His hand in our lives. We just have to put our trust in Him and go with HIS flow. Mi ancla tu seras. 

Well I hope yall have a good week! Love yall! Cassidi

Let me Wipe Away the Tears From Your Eyes

And in her mind she'd drift away

A secret place to steal away

Don't you cry, don't you cry

Let me wipe away the tears from your eyes

Erasure Phantom Bride 

When she was just a girl

She expected the world

But it flew away from her reach

So she ran away in her sleep

Dreamed of paradise

Every time she closed her eyes

Life goes on

It gets so heavy

The wheel breaks the butterfly

Every tear, a waterfall

In the night, the stormy night

She closed her eyes

In the night, the stormy night

Away she'd fly. 

Paradise Coldplay

Well, I survived a week in my new area. My new comp is Mexican American from Illinois. It's kinda rough because I went seven months without English and now it's just easier, but I want to keep speaking Spanish because I can't afford to waste my seven months worth of work. 

The new house is cute, and the two best parts are one I have a laundry machine, YAY,  and two, the shower works! NO MORE buckets with a water heater thing! MWAHAHA!

My second day my comp had a meeting back in my old area, so I ended up going to another area with Hermana Santos, my first comp on, divisions - like old times lol. 

I ended up going and printing out a bunch of pics and hung them up on my wall, it helps me feel close to "home". Not so lost. 

I have really missed marshmallows as they are kinda hard to find, but I found some and bought them, FUN! To bad graham crackers don't exist here. I miss s'mores. 

I finished Doctrine and Covenants this week! Wahoo! Next stop The old Testament...or the new? IDK.

It was the Jewish holiday, Yom Kippor, the other day so I ended up thinking about repentance a bit. It was also interesting because they made a weird round about reference to it in General Conference when they talked about doing family history, so that our names can be written in the Book of Life lol. I'm a geek.

Well, this week was rough... I have been double homesick.  One of my biggest fears in this life is losing those I love. Through all this, I have really come to appreciate the plan of salvation, and eternal families. 

Can I just say that music is really important? It can help emotionally, spiritually, etc. I am thankful God gave us such a pure way to express feelings, MUSIC!

Well, General Conference was great, it was really neat that people got to share their talks in their own languages, the translators voice in English was driving me CRAZY, so when people spoke in English we went to the chapel to listen in Spanish and then left to keep listening in English. I really thought it was cool how much they spoke about Christ, his mission, and who he is as a person. 

Well random fact of the day, 40 more posts and I'll be home! crazy!

Adios...oops hasta luego! (Someone once told me never to say goodbye.)

"People who cry are some of the strongest because they aren't scared to share who they are or how they feel." - A very good Mexican friend.